Life's matter how big or small

I've been battling something for a while. I stay to myself other than being with my husband and kids because I feel that there is always drama being started and I have too much going on to be in the middle of anything like that. I can count on one hand how many people I have as a real friend. One who truly cares. No matter what I do,  I feel that I am made to be the bad guy and when I don't even know what it is that I have done. How many times should someone say their sorry or try to make things right? I have feelings and I've been hurt over all this. I've cried and wasted too many tears over this.
I need to start concentrating on the good in my life. I have a very blessed life with my husband and kids. With God being first in my life, my family is everything to me.
On another topic....I've been having some female health problems for a few years. On Valentine's Day I will be having my second surgery and then another surgery to follow that.  I am giving it all over to God. This is something I should have done from the start.